luahan hati dan perasaan..

I hate people yg x respect org, x bg signal, x pk psl org laen, xde komitmen, suke lambat, suke mrh2, suke bg alsn, x bertanggungjawab, suke pk negatif about others... But... If he is someone that I love so much, I just hoping that he will change.. Insyaallah.. Always pray for that.. I want to have a good family.. The best family.. I taknak family yg celaru and byk problem in the future. Thats why I pray for the change.. I xnak everything destroy bcoz of those things. I just thinking about my future.. I love him so much!!! Hope he will not acting like that.. XxchocxX

rasa ini

Apakah sebenarnya rasa ini? Adakah sunyi adakah sepi Aku jua tidak mengerti Tentang rasa terbuku di hati Mungkinkah perlukan setitis kasih Mengkinkah inginkan secarik bahagia Namun tatkala final exam tiba Mengapa semua ini harus kuharungi Adakah semuanya takdir ilahi Inginkan aku tegar harunginya Tapi, malu ku akui Diriku tidak setegar itu Aku tak mampu laluinya Aku jatuh Aku tersungkur Aku leka Melayan perasaan diri sendiri Inginkan perhatian tak kunjung tiba Menangis sendirian di sudut kamar Walaupun aku sedar semua itu tidak bermakna Namun tak jua aku cuba melawannya Tetap dengan kekerasan hati Walaupun bisa mudarat diri Aku tetap tak peduli Tak jua aku gagahi Terus jua sebegini Mungkinkah aku masih menanti Mungkinkah aku masih mencari Kasih yang dulu datang kembali Tetap setia cuba memahami Tetap cuba untuk penuhi Dimanakah kau menghilang Tibalah disini Temani diriku ini Yang lokek dengan perhatian Yang kering tanpa kasih Namun aku tetap menanti Mungkin kasih kan tiba nanti (-_-')

1st paper

Oh my god!! Bbetapa jam lagi wa akan start first paper tok final exam. Tup tap tup tap dh hujung sem.fuhhh! Mcm br je masuk sem nii. Tetibe dh final exam.kejap lagi paper ctu. For me, ctu sgt memboringkan n sgt susah. Coz dy mcm sejarah. Ade kerajaan Srivijaya lah. Perlembagaan laa. Noooo!!! I'm not ready!!! I hate it!!! Ermm. Papepon wa tetp kene ambk gak. Xpelaa. Pasrah jelaaa. Nak bt cane. Dh mmg kne ambk. Oh UiTM, why don't u give me choice???? Bolehla wa plih paper ape yg wa nk ambk n paper ape yg xnak. Hahahaaa. Maatiii.. tapi.... bukan wa je yg x readyy, ade org laen pon takut nak ambk paper ni. Sape lg klau bkn Joji La Poit. Hahaa. Kesian. Leka duk study Managerial Economic smpi x study ctu. Papepon, good luck dear. We can do it!! Oh nooo. Sleepy. Ble nk study msti ngtok. Tdo jap la. Joji, nnt awk kjut kte k. Nk lelap jap. Heheee. Nunytzz. Morning!! Love you!! Papaix friends!

just a dream

Adakala aku rasakan dia bersamaku hanya untuk sesuatu, Adakah benar ianya begitu, Sulit bagiku menerima semua itu, Adakah rasa itu palsu? Adakah kata itu menipu? Adakah tingkahnya kayu? Apakah harga diri ini, Aku sendiri tidak mengerti, Tapi aku tak pernah peduli, Perlukah aku menyendiri? Membongkar semua ini, Yang akhirnya memakan diri, Tatkala manik jernih berderai di pipi, Aku mungkin x bisa berdiri, Hanya mampu meratapi, Tersingkapnya kisah ini, Yang aku rasakan bagai mimpi, Dikala siang hari, Mungkin esok lusa tiada lagi. Aku hanya mampu termenung, Mengenang nasib yg bakal merudung, Harapanku setinggi gunung, Andainya bisa diri ini melangkah kembali, Mampu kiranya aku merubah semua ini, Tidak mungkin aku mulai, Jika aku tahu sebegini, Atau mungkinkah ia hanya mimpi, Menjelma tatkala dini hari, Menemani hari2 sepi, Menambah perasa dalam diri, Bercambah cerita dilubuk hati, Oh.. Tidak mengapa.. aku tahu semuanya hanya mimpi.. Hanya mimpi... Berbeda dari realiti...

exam!!

Yo friend!!i love you. Final exam is just around the corner.so, good luck friends.. do your best.prqy for our success! To my housmate(wahee, qaqa n shasha),sori klau kte bsing tym korang study. Sori.. best of luck! To my beloved Joji La Poit,best of luck.. do your best dear.. jgn rsau sgt taw. Awak boleh!!! Sayang awk!

DATARAN PAHLAWAN

ouh yeah!! guess what? me? at dataran pahlawan.. dah 2 sem blaja kat melake, tak penah jejak dataran pahlawan. hahaaa. klau dlu b4 blaja kat mlake, dataran pahlawan la tmpat wajib g klau dtg mlake.. heheheee..
U know what? wa g dataran pahlawan just tok mkn kat Seoul Garden yg dah berabad tak g.. tym diploma dlu, almost every week pegi.. wah!! akhirnyeee.. dpt gak g seoul garden.. Pastu dpt bli famous amos skali.. Yeay!! Tapii... ble pulak nak g tutti frutti n bskin robin ni? kt mlake ni tak pnah pegi lg.. hope to get there soon.. hhuuuu.. siapa baik ati nk bwk wa, akt tgn!! yeayyy!!!! enough for now...

help me please.. :(

hahahaaa.. title ntah pape jek! hihii. actually nothing emergency yg perlukan bantuan pon. tapi kan.. tapi... wa nak sangat sesuatu.. hurmm. agk2 sapelah yang boleh belikan tok wa ek? ttbe wa menyesal plak tolak offer yang ayah buat aritu.. hihiii. tu laaa. tak pk btol2. mesti tetanye2 kan pe yg wa nak. huhuu..
Jeng3!!!....
......?......
Senanyee kn.. wa nak sangat galaxy note. klau tak dpt glaxy note pown tape. wa nak tablet.. ade sape2 nk bg tak? huhuu. tak lme lg birtday wa. Heheee. Gedik kan. Tapela. One day wa akan dptkan gak ape yg wa nak. Trust me! wa akan try dptkannye gk! huhuu.. thanx for reading.. post gdik dr wa.. burpp!! :p

something u should know

oh dear. u da knal I more than 5 years.Tp still ta knal I deeply. what a shame.ermm. K. Let me introduce myself. Name saye Norsyaidatul Azwa bt Kamal Ruzi(I bet u know it). Umo I skrg 22thn(11 may nnt la).I nie nmpk cm sgt brani tp actually ade byk bnde yg tkut. So, don't make fun about it k. please dear.

U taw ta pe yg I tkut sgt??since kcik,I takut sgt org meninggal. As u know, smlm atok sdare I mnggl kn. It really make me scared. Skt aty sgt ble u maen2 tym I ngadu kat u that I'm s scared. please dear.Sbb u I terpakse to ngan ibu taw. I tkut sgt2. mne2 I tgk msty nmpk cm ade bnde yg tkut 2. pleasee dear. I tkut sgt2. U jgn bt I cm2 lg. make sure u mtk maaf kat I. Tanak mtk maaf stkt ckp jek. Tanak! Apologize in other way. Kalau tak,I akn bnci n skt aty ng u sampai bble. please...

“Sorry kwn2. Wa ta thn sgt2. Nak luahkn kat cney. Hope dy bce. Entry ni khas tok 'dye'..”

what to do?

i'm so stress

i'm so lost

i'm so down

i cried of course

someone arrive

feel in my life

terribly empty life

without affection and love

i praise to Him

for what He gave

i'll never forget Him

as long as i'm alive

i feel guilty

towards the Creator

the greatest Creator

that controls the mars

also the universe

pardon me....

XXCHOCXX

berita tergempar!!

2 january 2012- seorang student hampir menjadi gila gara-gara tidak bersedia untuk menghadapi peperiksaan akhir. dikhabarkan, student itu telah mengupdate status beliau setiap saat. adakah ianya benar? mari kita selidik.

mungkin ada benarnya berita yang dikhabarkan. ini adalah satu tabiat yang tidak baik dan boleh mencederakan pelajar lain kerana pelajar lain akan turut merasa tekanannya. oleh itu, nasihat kepada semua pelajar, "HADAPILAH PEPERIKSAAN DENGAN SABAR. BERSEDIA ATAS SEGALA KEMUNGKINAN.CHILL LA DUDE". sekian berita hari ini..

dilaporkan oleh: wawa candies

keterharuan keterlampauan

olla friends!! dup dap dup dap jantung wa hari ni. senyum sampai ke telinge.. nape yea?? ehee.. let me story..

today... jeng jeng jeng!!!

ade seorang hamba Allah yang sangat disayangi do something yang membuatkan my heart berdegup pantas!

siyes woo!! ta pernah rase pasaan camtu. it my first tym feeling that feel when i be with him.

mane tak nye, seorang lelaki yang cukup kasar, tak romantik, selambe, tetibe give me a rose with surprising way.

weh! gle ko! nak gugur jantung wa!

 rase panas je muke. tak semena pasaan malu yang teramat sangat datang. hahaha..

wa yang ta malu ni, tetibe rase malu yang teramat sangat disebabkan hal yg kecik jek. pelik kan?

tp bg wa dat moment sgt bermakne. hope it can happen again.

u are the best dear. u make my heart melt.ngee~ gdik cket. lalalalaaaa..

 thanx to MOHD SHAMEE BIN MOHD SALEHUDDIN coz da buat wa happy semula walaupun macam2 da happen in my life.

 thanx a lot dear! u are my bez friend (hope to be soulmate) i ever had! i mish you...

xxchocxx

love and hatred

I love to test

I hate to remind

I love to wait

I hate to repeat

I love being naughty

I hate being selfish

I love to talk

I hate to critic

I love to write

I hate to read

I love intelligence

I hate nitwit

I love giving chance

I hate being ignored

I love to think

I hate to remember

I love future

I hate the past

I love to plan

I hate to fail

I love smiling

I hate crying

I love to love
I hate to lost

I love him

I hate him

xxchocxx

boy and girl

olla friends!! what ur feeling ryt now? do u happy? or are u in trouble? ehheee.. lets chill out and read this. it just for fun and not related with any person. it is only from my perspective.

*girls will never forget anything that her boyfriend want and she will try to fulfill his wants. she will get disappointed if she fail to fulfill what his boyfriend want.

+boys easily forget what his girlfriend want and he will get angry when his girlfriend just keep quite without reminding him what she wanted.

*girls will go to meet her boyfriend when they already promise to meet although her friends ask them to hang out together.

+boys will follow his friends to watch football match or playing snooker although he has promise with his girlfriend.  he will said: "syg, i nak g men snuker ni ngan mmbe. len kali la kte kuar k. dyowang da ajk, ta sdap la klau ta ikut. klau nak kuar gak, kte kuar kjp je ea."

*girls will said she is OK although she mad at her boyfriend.

+boys will get angry and scold his girlfriend when he can't hold his feeling anymore.

*girls will always ask for break up when there are many problem.

+boys will maintain and improve his relationship although it is  hard.

do u agree with me? cpe agree, raise up ur hand!! cpe tak stuju, sile baling wa dgn tlur skrg.. huhuu.. dats all for this entry.. daddaaaa dear~ 

mish u lorh...

"jgn cdey2.. idup kne eppy seolah2 kite akn rse bahagie tu untuk sekejap aje. so, appreciate that feeling."

xxchocxx

like to kill

yo!! yo friends!! cane progress u all minggu nie? ape yg kowang buat spnjg minggu nie and mggu depan?? lets check mine! lets start from sunday!!

20/11- Seminar Kemahiran Insaniah

21/11- Test Mandarin Language

22/11- Submission of Draft Foreign Direct Investment 

23/11- Kuiz Quantitative Business Analysis

24/11- Submission of Public Speaking Outline (BEL)

         - Seminar Personal Finance

29/11- Submission of Mandarin Language Script for Video (MEGA PROJECT)

         - Submission of Personal Finance (Past Year)
30/11- Submission of International Business Finance (Past Year)

02/12- Submission of Introduction to Business (Free Trade Area US vs MSIA)

wei!! ape sume nie?? UiTM nak dera wa ke?? bile mase wa na rehat?? nak chill out ngan kwn.. bile la weh?? weekend?? da tntu kne cyapkan assgmnt for next week.. adui! such a killing week!!! tp nie tdela killing sgt compare to last 2 weeks. everyday ade test. and 1 of the day ade 2 test. with presentation and mcm2 lg la.. oi!! wa na rehat gak la.. bile mase nak study?? dah tentu penat n mood nak study pown lari jauh dari wa. erm.. YA ALLAH, BANTULAH HAMBAMU YANG SANGAT LERMAH INI YA ALLAH.. Aminnn...

To Mohd Shamee bin Mohd Salehuddin, thanx support me although u pown penat. Tak penah u biakan I lemah sorang2 without any support or help. 1 more thing, thanx ajar I QMT(Decision Tree) taw. Bole gak I jwb kuiz 2 dengan mudah sket. Klau u tak ajar, I mmg ttaw lgsung. Thanx syg. U la kwn I sampai bebile. Thanx to Wahee and Shasha gak. Klau tde kowang, tde sape nak guide kte and teman kite tym kat umah. Tade sape nak lynkan ketensionan kte nih. Wahee, thanx bg pinjam OPET buat ilang tension. heheee.. Sayang kowang!! syg sesangat!!

xxchocxx

greatest memory ever

today???

22 novemberr 2011..

guess what??

5 years..! unexpected!it has been 5 years i know someone that successfully take my heart since i was 16..he is the one and only boy that successfully take my heart.a boys with no feelings, no attraction and have nothing special but so perfect and special to me. today is the most important time in my life that i'm waiting since i was 16..i'm waiting for the 5 years.erm.. although we are not together within this 5 years, i'm glad to have him as my friend during that time.and thankful god, we are still friend till now

don't let me go and don't go far from me juz hold my hand whenever i'm sulking with you then i will be calm

.it is not easy to express our feelings towards someone although we know our feeling.juz only i know what i feel, what i gone through and what i'm doing all this while.dear, just god know how much i love u and how much i need u in my life. there are no words i can say to tell you about it. although we always argue on something that we don't really know, i still love the way you are and accept all about you.

really want this(this week):

+ 'MAGNUM' (mkn with my beloved)

+ ribena strawberry

+ NYAM-NYAM (mknn knk2 yg salu wa mkn dlu)

+ Shushi King Kong.. eheeee..

+ mkn snek tepi laut ( dengan dye)

+ playing at playground with him (mne na cr?)

* i want all of that to be his treat

is it to much?? erm.. that are only things that i want that can make me happy. whether i'm happy or not is depend to him. only him.. <3

xxchocxx

lamenye tak jumpe..

hye kwn2.. lmenye tak jumpe.. so, bertemu kite kembali di dalam blog yg teruk ni.. hiks!!

now, wa kembali dengan diri wa yg baru.. with full of feelings and expression. 

with thousand tears and smile.

with many change of life.

so, accept the new me ok..! hehehe.. love you all!

i'm a bit busy now, so i will update soon.

i'm not going to leave my blog lonely..

syg dye.. 

huhuuu.. hye kwn2.. new me.. dah gmuk.. hiks!

xxchocxx 

adakah aku bersalah?

malam ini,

sunyi tanpa dia...

malam ini, 

sepi tanpa berita

malam ini,

tiada arah dan tanda

hanya kesulitan di jiwa

melanda bak gelora

oh! hiba...

datangnya memori mengamit minda

teringat sejenak kisah kita

yang dahulu gembira kini hiba

yang dahulu ceria kini berduka

hanya cacian menerpa

sudah tiada apa-apa

hanya tinggal sisa belaka

patutkah duka mengawal diri

ikutkan kehendak sendiri

yang hanya mampu bermimpi

tatkala di siang hari

yang tak mungkin pasti

hanyalah imaginasi

mewarnai hidup ini

andainya mimpi transform reality

mampulah kiranya kita berdiri

mengubah hidup sendiri

bagai magnet menarik besi

mengisi bahagia di hati

mengganti sunyi dan sepi

membawa derita pergi

jauh dari hidup ini...

oh!

kiranya semua bisa dikecapi

alangkah bahagia rasa hati

tak mungkin lagi aku menyendiri

senantiasa ditemani

insyaallah, tiada sunyi dan sepi lagi

temanilah diri ini....

....

TAK TERKATA..

TUP TAP TUP TAP!!

UWAAAAA...

KENAPE??

NTAH LA...

OI!!

KENAPE??

NTAH LAAAA..

DAH LA..

JGN LAYANKAN SANGAT!!

BUAT BODOH JE!!

UWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!

NAPE WA BEGITU BODOH???????

ERM...

PATUT KE WA??

PATUT KE??

AISH!!!

APE2 AJE..

WHAT GOES AROUND, COMES AROUND..(exactly)

WA NAK BAWA DIRI(takde sape ksah pown la wa.aish!! tayah nak ckp la)..

HIHIIII..

WA GILE SEBB ANDA..

ANDA BOLEH BUAT PAPE TOK DIE, TAPI BUKAN WA..

BETOL TAK KAWAN2??

(aish!! dah la wa! baek ko tido! ingat!! orang cakap, "single is better")

OIT!! APE PLAK!! SINGLE TU BORING LAAA! HAIYAAAA!!

EH! SORRY2! ADUI! TERPAKSE SAY SORRY LAGI.. SORRY YEA READERS. TERPAKSE BACE ENTRY BODOH CAMNI. KALAU TANAK BACE, TAYAH BACE. WA TA KISAH PON.PAPAIX!! SYG SUME ORG!!

XXCHOCXX

lalala~

malam yang indah.(tak la indah sangat)..

lalalaaa..

ape yang sedang dibuat??

uhuhuuu..

cop!!

pk2..lala lalala~

haaa..

tengah tengok muvie.

eermm.

should i??

should i go stret to da point??

uwaaaaa..

feel like crying!!!!

eh! npe plak?

gle ea?

hihiii.

takdela..

juz feel like crying.

kawan2, betol tak??

"ORANG AKAN BUAT APE2 JE SEBAB DIE TAW KITE TETAP DIRI KITE WALAU APEPOWN YANG DIE BUAT?"

erm..

cop2..

sudah sangat merepek..

sori yea kawan2..

tingtong sekejap!

hihiii..

papaix!!

na smbung nangis!

eh tak!

nak sambung tengok muvie..

aiyoyooo..

watpela nak nangis..

HIDUP KENE HAPPY!!!!!!!

hooorayyyy!!!

sudah lah! jangan ngarut lagi!

cukuplah!

entry pendek yang agak panjang dari wa..

uhuhu..

papaix! sorry!!

hiks!

P/S: Jangan terlalu berharap pada sesuatu yang tak patut diharap!

kelak akan menyiksa hidup kita sendiri.. 

sayangi orang yang anda cintai dengan sebaiknya..<3 

xxchocxx

such a T___T

Ouch!! Such a #$%^^%$#$ minutes! Nape nie? Npe? Why? Shenme? Ogenkidesuka? Ashiteeru(tde kaitan). Adui! Dah knape dgn diri wa nih! Erm. Actually, I’m still thinking about the past incident. But now, I’m not going to talk about it anymore.

Ehem2. Wa nak membebel something about what I see and what I feel. Hope it not annoy you yea..

1^st: pernah tak kite terfikir perasaan orang bile die tgur kite, tapi kite wat dunnoe ngan die? 

Haaa.. wa nak story cket la. Adelah sorang mmbe wa ni, a gurl(cute jugak la bg wa). Die br meet 1 guy(actually classmate dy dulu kot). He said that he adore this girl. Because of that,he always contact her till she feel bored and feel like to tikam that guy in his back.. hahahaa.. (2 yg die ckp la). Menurut mangsa, dat guy call die banyak kali. Layan die terbaik la bak kate orang Malaya. Sangat baek sehinggakan 1 day…, tup tap tup tap, girl ni pown layankan si boy ni. Akhirnya, dengan kecairan seperti kuprum dipanaskan dengan suhu yang tinggi, si boy ni Berjaya memikat hati si girl. Maklumlah, dengan ayat manis si lelaki durjana, mana2 pompuan pown terpikat(mb sbb simpati jugak).

Nak dijadikan cerita, from day to day, boy tu mula berubah sikap(haaa..prangai sebenar dah kluar la tuh!). he become a “kejam” boy. He make mmbe I cam sampah. He did many thing yang buatkan mmbe wa teruja(actually bkn teruja..SAKIT HATILA..eee). ha.. back to the point, bile mmbe wa terjumpe and tgur dy, dy berlalu pergi bak daun yang ditiup angin dengan kelajuan 10km/h. hahaa.. wut the freak la lelaki camni! Takpe babe! Nanti wa tlg awk k. kite balas dendam. Hahahaa(reti ke wa balas dendam?).

2^nd: Bile you say something (confession) to someone, he/she just ignore it. Ape pasaan anda ya???

Haaa.. ni lagi satu. Wa memang sangat tak puas hati. A punyelah beria cakap something ngan B. yang si B ni boleh wat dunnoe jek cam takde pasaan(cam biskut kering pown ade). Hahaha.. bodohnya manusia sebegini. Takde hati and pasaan ke wei? At least, kalau tak suke pown, just say something okay!! Kesianla kat orang yang bertungkus lumus(sampai tak makan tak tidur)menyediakan text untuk bercakap ngan anda. Pastu anda boleh wat die gitu jek. Aish! Sungguh tidak berperikemanusiaan kamu nih! Haaa.. 

1 more thing(yg wa tgk la), si A naik mcm2 post yg ditujukan pada B di Myspace(haha..kuno cket), tapi si B dengan baik budi bicaranya membiarkan saja tanpa sebarang reaction. Haish! Butakah? Tulikah? Laparkah? Dahagakah? Haaa. Maybe anda dahagakan sejirus air baldi. Atau anta laparkan sebiji penumbuk sebesar orange(kcik la plak). Fuhh! Wa boleh hadiahkan anda ape yang anda inginkan tu. Huhuu. Woi si celik IT! If dah Nampak something yang di post untuk kamu tu, give a reaction ok! Sign that u get it. Waduh2! Susah banget jika ada rame orang bego seperti ini didunia. Bias aja semua terbunuh gara2 dibunuh(haha.bodoh!).

Fuhhh!! End of this story.. 2 je? Hihii.. 2 je yg mampu ditulis.. dapat enggak?? bisanya dapat la ya. kamu kan orang pandai banget!! ngee~

motif: hahaha.. takde motif. comel.. eh bukan! rindu kamu banget lho!!! hihii.. syg awk la yunk.. alamak!! tercakap la! waduh2! gawat nih!

xxchoocxx