cut the crap! where's your promise??

Oh damn!!!! Nape?? Why???? Ouch!!! I feel hurt!! Really hurt!! Dah cam jantung kene bom la!! Wa memang betol2 tak sangke la, he will do this to me.. nape??? Wa tak cukup layak ke nak dapatkan hidup wa sendiri??? Tak layak nak dapatkan experience from other sources apart from my own mom?? Arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I feel bad!! So bad!! To0 bad!!!

i need some space laaaa~

Where is your promise?? Hello!! I’m not 12 years old girl!! I’m 21 okay!!! Please!!!! Give me some space!! I need my own space! I need to continue my life!! I need to be independence!!! Sampai bile wa nak nerharap kat parents wa?? So please, give me some space and trust to continue my life working! I need to gain experience working with others! Not only from my mom! Not only by working on my mom business!! 

Eee!!! Kan dah janji!! Dah janji banyak kali! I can work after I finish my study. Dulu, lepas SPM,k.yong nak keje ibu tak bagi. Ibu cakap tak patut keje lagi. Sekarang dah besar la. Dah 21 dah.. but, why?? Why I can’t do what I want? Dulu ibu tak bagi. And now, ayah banyak cakap. Ayah tak patut cakap k.yong camtu. Ayah fikirla sikit, anak ayah ni belom ada experience keje kat memane lgsung lagi. Camne k.yong nak cari serious job? Ayah cakap, setakat keje kat tempat2 camtu, baek tak payah. Bek jadi cashier ibu je. Adui!! Apelaa.. eeeeeeeee.. seriously I feel bad!

ops! i'm crying like this! serious buruk!! uwaaaa.. i'm crying!! 

uwaaaa..

I’m so sorry coz tinggikan suara. Bukan sebab ada niat nak melawan, tapi seriously I feel bad. Rase cam tertekan sangat. Jangan ingat selama ni k.yong diam k.yong takde perasaan. Kyong pown taw memberontak. Selama ni memang tak tunjuk pown. Tapi hati nie memberontak sangat2! Ayah, can you trust me to be independence.? Ayah nak k.yong cari keje serious walhal k.yong belom pegang sijil diploma pon lagi. Bukan k.yong takde usaha cari. Dah apply dah pon. Just you don’t know that.

Ayah.. I don’t think I’m ready for serious job! I’m lack of confident! I have low confident level. I don’t even feel comfortable to go for any interview. I’m scared. I’m not confident at all. All I need is to boost my confident level! Oh no! oh God!! Please help me! I really need guidance from You!! I need you!! To Ayah, please give me some space. I know my dad.. you not like this. You are the most understanding father before. Please don’t treat me like this.

p/s: I love my mom, dad and all my family.. Sorry for all my mistakes. Please.. Treat me as 21 years old girl. Not 12 years old girl. Give me space. Don’t be afraid if I’m going far from you to gain experience. One day, I’ll be going too.

xxchocxx